Pandemic, Lockdown and Parenthood.

Covid 19. It’s all over the news. With the increased in numbers of people get infected daily and the deaths, it is a scary world we lived in now. No one knows when thing will get back to normal again.

At critical moment like this, parents are the most cautious and stressful people. At least I did. I can’t help but feelings worried and scared everytime I look at my 2 years old son.

Of course he has no slightest worries like I did. He didn’t even knows that the world around him start to crumble and many has succumbed to the deadly virus.

So parents, should you be worried?

Of Course!

But should you stop yourself from living your life just because you are worried what this pandemic could cost you and your family?

Absolutely No!

You should stop worrying and start living your life again. You have kids to raise for God sake. If you are stressing out on things that has yet to happened or (probably never happened) to you and your family, you have no reason to stop living your life as how it should be prior to the pandemic (with little adjustment to the current situation) .

Of course many of us has been affected by the pandemic especially financially. But our government has taken measures and steps to control the spreads of the virus and providing financial aids and reliefs to everyone of us. Other than that, just obediently followed the lockdown order and keep your family hygiene at their best.

Do not sit as if you are waiting for the virus to find you. Instead, be on your foot and do whatever you always wanted to do but never had a chance of doing. For example, spending more times with your children.

I am envious to those who has the privilege of being stay home moms. They are the luckiest. I, on the other hand had no option but to leave my son at a day care nursery.

With current pandemic and lockdown order, we are now forced to stay home.

It is actually a blessing in disguise.

As working parents, this is the best time to spend quality times with your children. You have been so busy with works and leave all parenting jobs to the people at nursery or school for years.

Now you have all the times you want to spend time with your children.

So parents, it’s about time for you to show your kids what real talents are. Be the clowns, be the animals in one of your kids storybook, be the best chef, the best singer, the best musicians, perhaps magicians and many more. Be whatever they want you to be. Have fun and explore the kids’ world with your children without hesitatiom. Be the parents they always want you to be at their age.

Like many parents, I do not wish to raise my child in this kind of situation. But this is beyond our control. Its just happened and now we have to live with it at the moment.

It is OK to be worried but don’t loose yourself in the process and have faith that things will get better soon. Don’t give up now parents. Your family needs you. Chin up and be the best parents you could be to your children at this critical times. Remember, you are not alone. We are in this together. You can do it Moms (and dads of course!)


It’s a scary things to some…. taboo topics for the elderly…a blessing for others.

People gave up their marriage for many reasons.

To be honest once you get married it is not easy to walk away.

Hence, divorce is not a drastic decision but a well thought of.

It took years for a wife to finally have the courage and strength to walk away from an abusive marriage and/or cheating husband.

It took countless effort of trying to save a marriage before a husband finally gave up with the selfish act of wife or in laws.

Because its never easy. You might have bee thinking of divorce 10 years before it is really happening.

It is always the case that people marry for love. But like a life, love has a life span and expiry date too. Couple often opted for divorce because they don’t love each other anymore and living together as married couple is no longer convenient. They eager to move on and going into a different direction. Whichever makes them happy.

And like marriage, divorce can be really costly.

Never ever criticize couple who opted for divorce. We are not in their situations or living their life. We don’t know what’s really happening for them to make such difficult decision.

There is nothing wrong with getting a divorce. What makes it wrong is because of some people who tends to label divorce as embarrassing and those who getting a divorce are sinners.

To me..

If leaving a bad marriage makes me happy…so be it. Let me be the sinner.

A R E S P E C T please…

Today I would like to talk about one thing in particular.

It is not a commodity but very high in demand.

It is the most valuable thing in every one’s life though not many own it.

It is something that money could not purchase though some people willing to spent fortune to earn it.

It is R E S P E C T.

Many have mistaken being polite to someone means a respect to that person. I can assure you that 100 of people may not be rude towards you but that doesn’t mean they are respecting you at any level.

Polite and Respect are two different things. They are not in pari materia or vis-a-vis with each other. They come in a different package and they offered a different meaning.

Polite is an act while respect is a…concept. You have to understand its meaning, purpose, execution and the value it carries.

Respect is larger than age, status, level of education and wealth.

We often misunderstand obedience, fear and silence as an act or gesture of respect.

We thought that by having more than anyone else i.e wealth, power, status, education or in this era of digital by having more followers…we deserve to be respected.

Respect is not an automatic right nor anyone can have it at any time and any where and however it was required.

As said earlier, respect is a concept to be learnt and understand. Similar to trust and love. It has to be earned but not force out of anyone.

Parents don’t earned the respect just because they giving birth and raised their children.

Employer don’t get respected just because they are paying the salaries.

Teachers don’t deserves outright respect just because they share their knowledge to students.

Ruling party of the country certainly received the least respect when they failed their people.

Dato/Datukship or being a wife/children/parents to someone with that title doesn’t give you the right to be respected rightaway.

Being a lawyer might sounds intimidated to many people yet again it doesn’t guarantee the respect some expected.

There are lots more example. Go figure.

What I wanted to say exactly is…Respect needs to be understood and properly placed.

Respect should not be interpreted literally or be taken lightly.

Respect has to be voluntarily delivers.

Respect is not easily earn. Once you lost it you will never get it back.

Respect itself is a very strong force. That is why people demand for respect as a validation. Respect added value to people’s life.

But respect in its truest form…

Is very tender and delicate in nature. Extra care and attention requires to prolong it life span. It has to be nurtured with acts of kindness sincererity and selfless amongst others.

Respect is well-known for it short life span.

Respect do die.

Just remember this….

Some people choose to act polite towards the others though they hate that persons because being rude is not an option. It is just wrong.

They choose not to act up but being polite because it saves them from negativities and unnecessary drama from a rude and selfish people who doesn’t deserves to be respected.

If you don’t know it yet…

A little act of kindness and compassion will earned you a big respect.

Try it.

Home Sweet Home

Home is where heart is belong

“I dreamt of a home.

In that dream of mine

Home feels like heaven

It was bright and warm

It was so beautiful

I can’t stop smiling.

Oh how happy I am

To finally have a home

That I have been longing for.

In that dream of mine

Everything was there

In a home of mine

Where happiness knows no boundaries

Where laughter is contagious

Where fun is limitless

Where peace I finally found

In a dream of mine.

Do not wake me up now

Let me stay a lil bit longer

In a dream of mine.

In a dream of mine

I build a home.

In a dream of mine….

Sigh! It’s just a dream of mine”

Don’t Be… Just Don’t!

Don’t be parents just for the sake of making your parents happy for having a grandchildren.

Don’t be parents just because you need to prove that you are potent.

Don’t be parents just because you are married and the next thing to do is having a baby just because everyone did.

Don’t become parents just because you think baby is cute.

Don’t become parents just because you think you can do it. You are not Nike!

Please bear this in your mind..our children can’t choose their parents.

So if you can’t be the best version of yourself don’t even think of breeding another soul if you are only about to make their life miserable.

You have no right to put your child in unfair, miserable, less and unworthy life.

Just because your parent giving you the same shit that doesn’t mean your child should suffer the same.

You asked for them and them never asked for you.

Bear that in mind!

It’s real

When the anxiety and the depression kicked in for the first time…I really don’t know what to do. I don’t know what’s triggered the attack. It was launched against me without warning. May be there was a warning…obviously I am totally unaware of it. I thought I am going to die….that day.

Anyhoo, it was 3 years ago. I’m not saying I am fully recovered from it. It just that I have found way to ‘control’ it. When I feel I am going to burst..I’ll pause in whatever I do at that moment and leave everything as it is. Whatever I’m doing at that moment, it will cause the anxious feeling and depression state deepen. I had to stop.

But depression never leave. Whether you realized it or not depression is already planting a bomb in you. It’s gonna explode anytime. When it does you are not gonna be the same you. It ruined you from the inside. Slowly but deeply.

When I first had it. It was at night. Inside my boyfriend’s car. We were on our way back home. I already feel different that day. Though my life was as usual I can’t help but feeling gloomy inside. I thought may be I’m tired from running my own legal firm and preparing for my wedding that going to happen in 3 weeks time. So that night I wasn’t expecting any unusual. Then it happened.

Suddenly my chest feels tight. I feel numb. I can’t feel my face. I’m out of breath. I thought I’m going to have a heart attack but I didn’t feel any sort of pain in my chest. But it’s so tight. I can’t breathed. Enough to send a panic alert to my boyfriend. We end up in the emergency room that night.

My life never the same anymore since that night.

I’m not writing this so that I can’t tell people how to successfully recovered from depression. Honestly, I don’t know how. I am certain no one knows or whether there is really a way to cure depression.

What I really wanted to tell is depression is real and its serious and harmful. Don’t ever joke about depression. Depression could kill and its already taken many life as we speak.

The scary thing is it could happened to every single one of people in this planet.

So educate yourself. Learn about depression. It could helped you and the people you love.